Journaling

I started this blog so I would share my thoughts and things that I'm learning in life. I am a deep thinker, and I love to journal and reflect.

I just finished a page and a half of journaling in about 20 min.. and I realised a massive difference before and after. I have a bunch of things I need to get done, I left my job and my last day is tomorrow, I have not secured another, I have plans of things I want to build, while I apply to other jobs. I have hobbies and passions to pursue, I have deadlines and people to meet, I have things to fix around the house and many smaller tasks to be done as we speak... and it's 4 am and I couldn't do anything on my list. For 2 hours, I felt stuck, I felt like I was tired, too tired to work, but too anxious to sleep. My best friend was busy with family and I couldn't call anyone to vent about the thoughts I was having, not at this time at least.

It was 3:30 am by the time the thoughts took over and I felt too overwhelmed and decided to journal.

I began journaling and all of a sudden my fingers started typing faster that I would speak. All of a sudden I felt invigorated. I suddenly felt like I can take over the world and like I was more awake than ever to do some of the tasks tonight before going to sleep -- not that I shouldn't sleep nor be awake at this time. This isn't the first time this happens, I've been journaling since 2021 (at least more regularly than I used to before then) and I've been journaling about once a month or twice a month when I get really overwhelmed and seriously need to clarify my thoughts.

However, this time was different. This time, I noticed I wanted to draw now, and I have been trying to draw for the past several days (let alone past couple of hours). What hit me in this moment is that the power of journaling was obvious to me this time. I realised the weight is shed off my mind.

Everyone says that journaling is healthy and helpful, but noone really goes in depth as to why, they just list a bunch of benefits, and if you come across the right amount of reels on IG that talk about it or the right amount of articles or comments from people, it's just enough to get you started.

And I understand why, because the power and value of journaling is more than one can explain. You have to really try it, often (the goal is to make it a daily habit, but at least once a week), and only then can you see the difference in the way you think and the way you go about your day, the way you deal with problems and even the way you express yourself to others and to yourself in your own thoughts.

When you journal, it's not for anyone to read. It is a safe space for you to get real with yourself and really understand why you feel the way you do and to dive into yourself and explore your mind and thoughts. It's not just about talking about what you did in a day, but more about how to felt and why something bothered you or made you happy. It's like you become your own therapist in a way.

It's amazing and you should definitely give it a try! Happy journaling :)